I Get It

We can blame everyone else before finally getting to ourselves. Why? We can stay in the victim role for a little longer then we need to be. Why? Sometimes it is not always our fault. Majority of the time it really is. We are sometimes often more than not the cause of a lot of our issues but then we are so quick to point the finger at he ex who cheated or the our drunk of a mother. So ready to blame everyone else but the truth is at the end of the day even when it is their fault we must not stay stuck on those memories. It is time to let go. Whatever that persons motives were for doing what they did is on them. It was really not because of you but because you just happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, you got hit by the stray. Tend to that wound. Let it heal. Don't bleed to death.

 

Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy (Full Album)

Eyes Wide Open

Morphing still in progress....

            

Eyes Wide Open

My eyes are wide open! It is a new day. I am happy to be able to wake up to a new day. Sometimes with the way these people worry the hell out of me I think I might wake up dead. Ha! I am preparing to leave a little earlier if possible. I have to because I am tired of people and their nastiness. Whether it be your attitude or the way you keep a home you are taking me there. I am done! I know you wish ill on me but you better believe I am strong and I will continue to make it through. I complain (a lot) but I still get it done. All is well.

Never Mind The Enemy,You Have Bigger And Better Shit To Fry

There is so much more going on in my life than I let on. Do I want to share? Nah. Y'all nosy. LOL! Just kidding but really, no. I am so tired of dealing but we have to understand that life is a game of chess. Play the game. It is all about strategy. Be strategic. 

• Recognize the pattern.

• Plan to Change the pattern.

• Don't let emotions take over. Remember this is a game.

• Read The 48 Laws of Power.

• Make a vision for yourself. Set big goals.

• Be willing to fuck over your mother to accomplish them. LOL! Seriously. Kidding=)

• Start to work toward those goals.

• Rename game! Who do you need to become to make this dream a reality? 

• You are the queen on the chess board. Remember that. Now, who are the other players?

• Where do I want everyone? Who is most beneficial? Who is least beneficial? Valuable any?

• Embody who you need to become. Implement. Win!

• Rest in peace to the weak asses!

• Hello Boss. Status? Boss. Whose winning? You are. Regrets? No.

                      Have a wonderful day and after reading the above, new life.

                                                       The Chaos Code

I knew it all along

I look and I see right through you. I knew it was you. I have tried to make excuses for you but there comes a time when you have to face the truth. The one you love is the one you have to rid yourself of. Goodbye beloved. 

                                                                   Sincerely,

                                                                                                      The One You Betrayed

Yesterday Was A Good Day

Yesterday went by so smooth. I had a kink and a scare but nothing to really worry about. I am so focused on getting my shit together and getting the hell out of this house that I can't worry about the little Chinese lady freaking out on me for an old folk remedy she does not understand. I had an onion tied around my neck in what looked like a mojo bag. Now this started with a question. Do you cook? At first I looked perplexed and then said yes. She said you smell like you cook. I then thought oh, the onion! I then proceeded to show her where it was coming from. She looked a little afraid. Oh well, that is the last time and to be honest I wish I hadn't shown her. I already fear my life sometimes where I live because I am different. I don't want to fit into a box like the rest of these mufuckas. I am me! Accept or leave me b. I felt really weird only because of the sachet. It is not like it is an actual mojo that had life breathed into it but it was still a funny feeling and unless I absolutely have to I won't be going back into that store for a while. Other than that, today or yesterday rather was a good day=)