I Get It

We can blame everyone else before finally getting to ourselves. Why? We can stay in the victim role for a little longer then we need to be. Why? Sometimes it is not always our fault. Majority of the time it really is. We are sometimes often more than not the cause of a lot of our issues but then we are so quick to point the finger at he ex who cheated or the our drunk of a mother. So ready to blame everyone else but the truth is at the end of the day even when it is their fault we must not stay stuck on those memories. It is time to let go. Whatever that persons motives were for doing what they did is on them. It was really not because of you but because you just happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, you got hit by the stray. Tend to that wound. Let it heal. Don't bleed to death.

 

Kanye West - My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy (Full Album)

Eyes Wide Open

Morphing still in progress....

            

Eyes Wide Open

My eyes are wide open! It is a new day. I am happy to be able to wake up to a new day. Sometimes with the way these people worry the hell out of me I think I might wake up dead. Ha! I am preparing to leave a little earlier if possible. I have to because I am tired of people and their nastiness. Whether it be your attitude or the way you keep a home you are taking me there. I am done! I know you wish ill on me but you better believe I am strong and I will continue to make it through. I complain (a lot) but I still get it done. All is well.

Never Mind The Enemy,You Have Bigger And Better Shit To Fry

There is so much more going on in my life than I let on. Do I want to share? Nah. Y'all nosy. LOL! Just kidding but really, no. I am so tired of dealing but we have to understand that life is a game of chess. Play the game. It is all about strategy. Be strategic. 

• Recognize the pattern.

• Plan to Change the pattern.

• Don't let emotions take over. Remember this is a game.

• Read The 48 Laws of Power.

• Make a vision for yourself. Set big goals.

• Be willing to fuck over your mother to accomplish them. LOL! Seriously. Kidding=)

• Start to work toward those goals.

• Rename game! Who do you need to become to make this dream a reality? 

• You are the queen on the chess board. Remember that. Now, who are the other players?

• Where do I want everyone? Who is most beneficial? Who is least beneficial? Valuable any?

• Embody who you need to become. Implement. Win!

• Rest in peace to the weak asses!

• Hello Boss. Status? Boss. Whose winning? You are. Regrets? No.

                      Have a wonderful day and after reading the above, new life.

                                                       The Chaos Code

I knew it all along

I look and I see right through you. I knew it was you. I have tried to make excuses for you but there comes a time when you have to face the truth. The one you love is the one you have to rid yourself of. Goodbye beloved. 

                                                                   Sincerely,

                                                                                                      The One You Betrayed

Yesterday Was A Good Day

Yesterday went by so smooth. I had a kink and a scare but nothing to really worry about. I am so focused on getting my shit together and getting the hell out of this house that I can't worry about the little Chinese lady freaking out on me for an old folk remedy she does not understand. I had an onion tied around my neck in what looked like a mojo bag. Now this started with a question. Do you cook? At first I looked perplexed and then said yes. She said you smell like you cook. I then thought oh, the onion! I then proceeded to show her where it was coming from. She looked a little afraid. Oh well, that is the last time and to be honest I wish I hadn't shown her. I already fear my life sometimes where I live because I am different. I don't want to fit into a box like the rest of these mufuckas. I am me! Accept or leave me b. I felt really weird only because of the sachet. It is not like it is an actual mojo that had life breathed into it but it was still a funny feeling and unless I absolutely have to I won't be going back into that store for a while. Other than that, today or yesterday rather was a good day=)

New Day

Today when I woke up, I told myself it is about me today. I am not going to allow anyone to piss me off today. So it is. If I feel like I am about to flip a table then I will simply walk away. Last night was when I realized just how far I have come. I asked someone to do for me what they have asked me to do numerous time. Can you go to the store and get my Klondike and Mountain Dew? You still come back with nothing! Wtf? In my head the thoughts were rolling and I did not allow my ego to reach out to this person. I remained calm (thoughts at an all time high) got dressed and headed out the door on my own little mission to get exactly what I wanted. You all out there in the virtual world don't know me but if you did you would pat me on the back. I get tired of doing for others. I ask for something so simple and you still can't do it. It's not like I asked you to move a mountain. Although, if you had the machinery and the know how to operate said machinery you would still fail me. I did good. I have come far. I am going to continue to get better. It did not occur to me that I did not retaliate the way I normally would until way later into the evening. I was thrown off myself by it but that was yesterday. Today is a new day and it will be a good day.

The Usual

As usual, I wake up to chaos! Why? Just another month  and 3 weeks. I am out! I am out! I am out!

Only U

I am mad at me. I am not mad at you. I am mad at me because I fell in love with you. I am so mad because I allowed myself to get too caught up in you. You are a Boss. You are a king. You are one of the very few and you don't belong to me. Why? I think I will spend an eternity looking and the whores will always win. Sometimes it is not always a whore. For me I believe it was a missed opportunity. I wish I could tell you I love you but even if I did you wouldn't say it back. She wins! I loose again.

Almost There

The time is quickly approaching. I am ready. I still have so much to do. Funny how that last thought I had popped in my head knowing that much is really not much at all. We syke ourselves out to believe that and it is like there is such a heavy burden placed on us by ourselves. So I shouldn't say I have so much to do, I should just say I have so a few tasks to complete and I will be able to complete them effortlessly. I am starting to get a little better at this organizing thing and before I move I will already have a system setup. I look forward to starting over. I am somewhat stuck right now though because a retrograde is coming and I DO NOT take chances. I will stop whatever I had planned and push it back or speed it up if I find out that there is a mercury retrograde. I KNOW better. So little time and lots of planning to do.

You Can Achieve Whatever Your Mind Can Conceive

Just like there is no action possible without first the idea or thought; there is no great achievement possible without the desire to achieve it. The intensity of your desire is directly proportional to the rate of which any achievement is realised.
If you are able to transform your desire into more of an obsession then you will have no difficulty in convincing your subconscious mind that you are indeed very serious and will achieve your goals,dreams and desires.

It is when your subconscious mind is convinced of your conviction to achieve is when great things start to happen because your subconscious mind is connected to, and influences your universal realities.

Therefore…When you convince your subconscious mind of your success, through your desire, obsession, behaviours, actions and re-actions then success comes easier.

The purpose here is to create the desire for absolutely anything and everything you want, and to become so fanatically resolute about acquiring it, that you easily convince your subconscious mind that you must have and will have it, and will never give up no matter what obstacles the universe might put in your way to achieving your desires.

You also need to become wealth conscious. Only the person who conditions their mind to become wealth conscious acquires the wealth that he or she truly desires and works toward. To become wealth conscious means that your subconscious mind has become so comprehensively preoccupied and driven with the desire for success and wealth, that it can see itself already having it and in total control of it. Your mind then learns to expect success and wealth and thus creates success and wealth.

To the sceptical, that have no experience or knowledge of the great potential of the human mind, and prefer to remain stuck in their ways, and wallow in failure, these great laws or principles could seem somewhat unreasonable and unrealistic or impossible. For the sceptical there is only so much you can do to help them break free from the slavery of their failure consciousness, but ultimately it is from their own ability and desire and discipline and action that will break the bonds of their pessimistic and negative mind frames.

To develop the necessary desire, and to bring desire into your quest, you do not need to have any special talents or skills. You just need a bit of faith /belief, discipline, determination and follow-through.
The successful application also requires adequate planning or rather a bit of imagination, so that the mind is able to clearly see, and be able to comprehend, the idea of you amassing great wealth or achieving any kind of success that cannot and will not be left to probability, family fortune, or least of all – to luck.






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Blank Space

I thought I had a friend in you. Obviously NOT! I am not perfect I admit. I allowed myself to get caught up in an illusion. I used you to substitute what I did not have. I never wanted your body I just wanted to be in the presence of  king. I am sorry if you feel as though I tainted you. You probably thought I was too dumb to read between the lines but I was able to see through it. The bullshit that is. I still have mad love for you and I always will. Some more truth for you is yes I do see you as handsome. Enchanting even. If you were not married you could even get the business but I respect you and (I may not know her) your wife. I am no home wrecker. I hate we had to go like this.

Happy Happy New Year!

2015! Let's get it baby!!! New year. New beginnings, New life. New Me! New You! *Cheers*